By Neeti Paul Sethi
Lately, I found myself watching reruns of my old favorite soaps from childhood. Mostly my all time favorite ‘friends’. I find so much comfort in these episodes, even if I know what’s going to happen, they give me same amount of joy every time. Maybe I am looking for something predictable in this time of uncertainty.
I know there is a lot of buzz about seizing the day and taking this opportunity to do things that we have never done. That’s all fine and good, of course we can do things that we otherwise never get time for. That makes complete sense. But if you are still having difficulty with getting on with life and starting new projects, I can see why.
See everything has changed. So suddenly and drastically, that we seek some comfort in familiarity. Anything minutely resembling our old routine or mindset is difficult to let go of at this point, as we might feel totally lost. Holding on to what seems familiar is our way of ensuring that we are not totally lost. It’s a defense mechanism to retain our sanity. So it’s completely okay. Don’t feel guilty about it. Yes try to let go of what isn’t serving you or is toxic.
While it’s okay to hold on to what I would consider an old habit, don’t let it ruin your chances of doing more, becoming more and of course allowing yourself to feel more.
It’s okay if you can’t, and it’s great if you can. Know that what you are feeling is not any different from what others are going through. Don’t isolate yourself mentally. Open up, allow change, allow healing…. allow transformation.
Depression in the time of worldwide lock down is no surprise. It’s normal. Even if you are privileged. Nothing to feel guilty about not feeling your best even if your circumstances are way better than many. Don’t beat yourself about it, don’t try to ignore the sadness that’s slowly creeping up. Don’t shush your inner voice.
Depression ko acknowledge karona.
Be fully aware of what’s going on inside you, acknowledge it and then work on it. That’s enough. If you don’t know how to help yourself then don’t hesitate to reach out.
It’s okay if you just survive this time, it’s okay if you don’t have new achievements to show during what others are considering a ‘bonus time’ to do things. It doesn’t have to be the same for all. But what you must ensure is to use this time to process your feelings, to get some rest and not allow outside influence to ruin this extra time for you. Use it how you want to. Not how you are expected to. Use it to feel, allow yourself to heal.
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